Her Eminence rhymes

2011-12-23T13:48:00.000-08:00

it's one day before christmas eve

and i miss him like crazy

he's probably laughing now and going out with his friends, how i wish i know what he's doing.
could he really be not loving me? could he really not want me

the more days pass, the easier it should be, but it's not.

it's getting harder.

how i wish i dont live these days.

how i wish things didnt turn out the way they are now.

want him back? maybe, but not without the respect, the love and the dignity

i can't take him back, i dont want him far, i dont want to be weak.

merry christmas all.

2011-12-11T12:53:00.000-08:00

i just want to call.

ask how are you? how are things? how's ur work? How's she?

what's up?

a lot of things have happened with me, updates, that i'd like to share.

i just want to call and talk.

no results, no thing, just a random conversation.

what if you don't pick up? what if you're too cold that i couldn't bare it.

what if i hated you after the call.

i'd rather not call.

i'd rather call but not have that as a result.

how could u take this much of a break? is it a final break? should i really forget you?

why? it doesn't make sense, it really doesn't.

sometimes, things happen in weird ways

i can't but think that we fit together, why the separation.

why should i believe it..

time should show everything, and how hard that is.

I need a break

2011-11-29T13:21:00.000-08:00

he never allowed me a day for a break,

now I should give him the time he needs,

how come this is fair?

how come it is fair?

I can't survive this anymore, I want to call and beg him the return

but he shouldn't be begged, how come when he wants me back he can easily fool me back into it

emotions.. emotions.. emotions, we always loose this battle and the guys always win.

he decides when he wants me back, he decides when he wants to leave, when he wants to come back.

i have to sit and wait.

then he tells you, why wait? live your life, if we're meant to be we're meant to be.

seriously?

how am I supposed to live with that? easy for me to do?

I do not want emotional troubles, I hate them.

2010-04-03T17:35:00.001-07:00

you might as well, just kill me

accused

2009-02-09T14:14:00.000-08:00

i was accused..

broken into a million string when it rings

as if i am for a thousand guys out there for a fling

He

2007-11-21T08:14:00.000-08:00

He is beautiful
Beauty according to my definition

He is gentle
Gentle according to my standards

He is rich
Rich according to my satisfaction

He is romantic
Romantic according to my complexities

He loves me
He adores me
He worships my grounds
He respects me
He lifts me up

He
Can't
Exist

He
Doesn't

a mouth... shut

2007-09-26T10:13:00.000-07:00

It's really hard to deal with a man of no reason

It's harder to deal with a man of no brains

a man of hand, voice and screams

a man of temper, power and no aim

it's silly how you look at it and know it's wrong

very clearly wrong

but yet can't do a thing

can't whisper the wrong

it's funny how in a world of many people

a world of few dominates

it's funny how your sex defines your state

it's funny how it's so clearly wrong

it's funny how blind you get along

Closure

2007-09-15T09:11:00.000-07:00

Attention: this post can cause tears, heart aches, or nothing; it depends on who you are.

Song recommended: little things- Lily Allen

It happened, this one thing that shook every normal
One life on the edge, other lives are close to that edge
You can pull your life out; it’s your own choice and call
But the one on the edge, is almost lost

You can hang on the edge for a little while
Until you can’t hold it anymore
Until you get so tired of waiting that freaking hope
Until suddenly all you believe in doesn’t lift your soul
Until you simply give up

I met this person at the beginning of my uni days
They met him too, a couple of little times
He was okay in their eyes, a nice person
And he’s off the list now
It was a simple friend- friend definition

I met this other person last year
Never thought a friendship will arise
It was different, it was slow and fast
Rhyming friends, both with poetic abilities
Sharing friends, my problem vs yours
Your soul picks people, and you only follow
I felt comfortable and easy to that
And it was simple, complicated but right

I knew about the sick grandma
The one day a week
This subject, this father,
We are people and we have our simple daily stories
I had my share, I had my share

The two were the same
The two walked together
The two were together along with the common person

I met some others before these days
And it was the same over again
I always back off at certain time
The time when I feel vulnerable
When I feel that I should be a one sole soul
When I feel that I shouldn’t be weak in front of anybody

That’s when I used to pick
Now fate decided to lend a hand
Of someone who can make my choices for me

For that I dump you all
I leave you all
Because things need to have closure
And mine took long

I don’t want to be in your throat
You don’t see that now, you’ll soon do
I don’t want to be “the” burden
You don’t feel that, you’ll feel soon
I don’t want to be anything
You don’t know that, you’ll figure soon

Ramadan has already started
Tell her it’s done, Lubna’s case that is
Go to iftars, go to whatever
Lubna Taimeh doesn’t exist anymore

We were F.R.I.E.N.D.S, let’s benefit from that by:
Now that my friend is what I call: clloosure

Your Illusion

2007-07-29T09:21:00.000-07:00

To the Illusion in you

You don’t know, I promise you that.
It’s all mixed inside, I can’t interpret it
Days are passing so quickly
Each day I miss, brings hope for the next
And the cycle goes on and on

Even when the illusion exists
It’s always bored or in need to leave
I don’t bother, or explain
It’s all in the looks that the illusion and I share

When it’s mixed with reality calls or chats
It sounds so unreal
The two souls don’t match except at special rare moments
I miss those “rares”

My revolution

2007-07-29T09:20:00.000-07:00

I reached... finally to the gate
the only gate i was blind and couldn't see
the one door i wasn't able to find its key
i don't belong to you, your city or your last name
I decided not to belong, even when all facts say different
they can force on paper, but not on mind
and yes i lost you, you lost me, it's the end here
i could've said: NO, but that's not what i want
I could've pointed out, but why should I?
If your brain is blind, if your heart is a lie
if your soul is veiled, I don't think I should be your light.
I am not proud of you, your city or your last name
I'm sticking to the 1st of my names
and my revolution should start from there

Time

2007-07-29T09:19:00.000-07:00

I think time is in a chase with us all
I used to run, now i'm too old
I want to reach there fast
apparently there's no cheating even for the last
Things happened so quick that I can't keep a grip
I trust but not really, I believe but doubt sincerely
Worries, excitement and alot of brain action
while for the hurt, blocking takes a good fraction
Parties, up to threeto my brain, only God and sometimes me can flee

Missing Marwan

2007-07-29T09:18:00.000-07:00

If you miss all these and miss me,Imagine what I miss.... :

I miss the warmest of all hugs
I miss the beautiful heart that shudnt be stopped
I miss the one always beside me
I miss who always fight for me
I miss our funky drives, and god knows what else
cmon no one helps me prove omar's existence but you
no one knows how to deal with things like the me and you
i think ppl will think we're nasty, dear so i'll shut up here, and hurry bring ur ass here
yalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

She

2007-07-29T09:17:00.000-07:00

she thinks life rotates just for her
she thinks that it's all about what she wants
she thinks that we're all zero next to her needs
she thinks that she can rule with her deeds
screw you a day shall come, a day that's near

Emotion"full"

2007-07-29T09:15:00.001-07:00

sometimes i smile
sometimes i cry
sometimes i laugh
sometimes i weep
sometimes i share
sometimes i hide
sometimes i dance
sometimes i fight
never i hit
and the dress isn't done yet

A reply to only you

2007-07-29T09:14:00.002-07:00

sometimes it makes her feel sad
the eyes would spread gazes
carried in little sad phases
sometimes she'd wish she's loose
to do nothing, just the simple and right
emotions should be allowed to flow
suppression of any sort is a blow
sometimes.... it only becomes a wish
sometimes itself is a wish
sometimes ah...... let's just smile

Right goes right

2007-07-29T09:14:00.001-07:00

I don't care
I really don't.
I choose, I pick, I make my decisions
If they dont like it, screw their likings
I invite, I tell, I ask you to come
If they eye you, screw their eyesI tell you cuz i always do
I tell you not for you to leave or go
I don't know if you're worried about you
I don't know if it's you, or me on the go
I know I will always carry the fight
cuz what's right, should never hide

A freak

2007-07-29T09:13:00.001-07:00

Okay,, I can bare everything
I can… nothing is much, But to have to bare a freak like this one
I can, but I will not
Who the hell put you in charge
I set the rules, you can argue But you can’t set the rules
Want to go tell on me, please do
Screw you, gosh I can say it in your face too
Am glad I’m done with that
Am glad I’m done with an ass like that

My feelings to you

2007-07-29T09:11:00.002-07:00

it feels weird sometimes, because i can't define
define it, what it is, or how it is
all i know is that i want it to magically work
but all i get is twists along the road
i'm trying to let go, but it keeps on coming
gosh i wish things were different
just plain different, something that works out with no troubles or difficulites...
i guess.... it's as najeeb said today: childhood was the best time ever.
things were simple, and easy

really

2007-07-29T09:11:00.001-07:00

I'm done with school...
but not really

I'm partially happy....
but not really

I'm loaded with stuff...
but ...really
I'm lost along the track...
i hope dearly

I want it to happen my way...
let's wish sincerely
I want to cut loose...
it's a wish, merely
I'm a freak..
I know... really

On the deactivation

2007-07-29T09:09:00.000-07:00

At a moment, I deactivated my account
I lost contact with few, a certain amount
I lost pics I uploaded here at feelin
I had no clue, I hate it now, hate it, hate it
Some of them meant a lot to me,I’ll try to recollect some, let’s see
I just hate it, hate it.

On another note,This is something I haven’t told u before
I love to listen, I even listen when u don’t even notice
The only time I ask not to listen, is when I know I’ll get hurt
I don’t listen, cuz I know I’ll get jealous
I’d rather block than hear what my ears don’t want to
Why should I hurt my ears?
ah.. they get hurt anyways

2007-07-29T09:08:00.001-07:00

You know it’s not about the ride
We had fun in the go with the domes and all
we had fun in the back, ur action was for all
You should know that it’s not about that
The heck with a bit of thrill when you seemed like in hell
I just hate how you don’t appreciate your health
Especially when you saw that others did care for it
And took right actions while you took the cigarette
Ofcourse it wasn’t ur intention or aimAnd its ofcourse no shame

2007-07-29T08:57:00.000-07:00

I feel physical and emotional pain
My physical is due to rum and its mountains
My emotional is a pour of many little tins
each tin filling my brain with little dozed worries
all I wish now is being so loose, eating wild berries
Raspberries, hallons, all sorts of sour breezes
no school, no people , a little of some brain freezers
lets take a long bet and a long breath
lets wait for tomorrow and its hidden death

2007-05-28T12:17:00.001-07:00

i'm running away from my xlubnax to here, cuz i know few check it in here

i do believe i live in hell... today i managed to finally admit it

screw your mentality, screw your thoughts.. i don't believe in them but i can't do anything against them... screw me and screw my life

screw you for not standing for me, screw you for not caring about it and just wanting to cut it down....

random day

2007-05-24T12:11:00.000-07:00

it hit me, and I figured that they’re just words
Said to her, him, to everyone, and I’m unique no more
I too cling to them, they make me feel safe…a simple sword
But I don’t share; what I write you, I write no other soul

7enz… the following is all yours
You’re so thoughtful and great
You hear me out, when all ears are straight

I brought the apples, and it was fun
You should have enjoyed the breeze that came with no sun

You either wait for august when I get the black pearl
Or we drive after 8 before we melt with a hurl

What’s PSUT…

2007-05-20T11:10:00.001-07:00

It’s a ratio of 20 guys to one girl
.
.
.
It’s a park and a 15 jds a year
If you’re a smurf don’t dream of the permission dear

It’s she5 hassan, w wijdan, w omar 3toum
Ah… three names one of which causes the doom

It’s: nice guys, freaks and little admirers
It’s rare girls; rarirty is causing empires

It’s my first year and abdelfatta7 was singing
That was at the cafeteria, n I hated belonging
But now I know it’s funny
N it’s reminding me of that inti5abat pinkish bunny

It’s physics labs with qadoumi
Gosh the guy is so poor, his name reminds me of Indoomi

It’s failing subjects, lots of library staying
It’s a semester cycle of studying

It’s Khaled m7amad’s “ma3lesh yala”
Although I get him his calculator mishan allah

It’s so many things that I’d like to keep
Enjoy this, let’s see what you can beep?

I think I made my point(s) clear
Now i’ll hide, it’s much: a reveal

I miss you

2007-05-19T04:48:00.001-07:00

I know you’re busy
And you barely sleep
I understand but
I just mind the lost contact
when together you’re not
You’ve got the new crowds
That forced your mind to distract
My stories are not of interest anymore
Our simple delicate living is not being
rewind on the phone anymore

Even when that happens, it’s not like before

I’m still here, still the same
I just wish you are too

What happened to the desperate drives
the time when we turned off the lights
and ran around waiting for the car to arrive

The “we’re going to prana” call, that got him all twisted
I hate the mention of the two not the three
Please stop that, we might flee

Admiration

2007-05-18T01:17:00.000-07:00

I find it so hard to see the last two for me
I see admiration in the eyes of many
I fail to combine my whole
I want to feel normal
to be small
I don’t want to be what they see
I want to be a ball

Please don’t count on me
Don’t admire me
Don’t like me
Don’t appreciate my presence

I’m just a random person
Just as you are

2007-05-17T11:32:00.000-07:00

“Too much” is how much I think
It’s funny how I didn’t inherit the family’s migraine
Although my case seems pretty fitting
Apparently it’s the wrong batch at the hitting

In my brain swirl 700 things a moment
I might focus with you at a split
But you’ll find the hidden story in the eyes like a glit

I’m tired of the many things
School, Marwan, responsibility and add her
I can’t bare seeing the mistake walk with me everyday
I can’t bare the switch taken from the heir

I hate having to shut myself
Thinking that it’ll soon end
when I know that it’ll keep on going on

If I speak, I’ll ignite the game
Something all are waiting for
But are too scared to dare
I don’t mind being the catalyst
As long as it wouldn't hurt anyone
And ofcourse it wouldn’t be my way
All are to be hurt along the way

So I’ll go back to shutting up
And I’ll annoy you here, until it floods in my cup

Feelin Wall at 8:31pm on May 16th, 2007

2007-05-17T11:31:00.002-07:00

I saw the ear bending over to my side today
I saw the eyes under their protective shades
I heard the voice in that copy cat tone
I think it's perfect, someone shouldn't ask for more

2007-05-17T11:31:00.001-07:00

too much rain outside
too much thirst in my throat
a strong combo, plus my filled in mind
it forced this, although i wish for that
i hate it now, lubna is off the list
i better try again, i owe it to the self

trois dix neuf

Burst two

2007-05-17T11:29:00.000-07:00

It’s in less than an hour
A freak on my back
I walk, can’t see my shadow
I just see his

The other is just buried in his too much
I spell the magic words
They seem to pass him by so quick
He doesn’t even notice
I have to explain it at all times as a bonus

She keeps on judging me for this and that
But she doesn’t see herself
She does what she accuses me of
it irritates ...pretty much

The one I don’t think will do it
Would be the only one to understand
To see right, to ask on time

Stay busy with your own lives
Or with what counts in your life

Please leave my door step dear
Many need the entrance clear

Burst one

2007-05-17T11:28:00.000-07:00

I’m sick of explaining it
Always…

I’m tired of waiting on it
Always…

I’m demanding the least attention
Always...

You’re lost…clueless… poor
You’re sweet, but yes simple
I’ll clue you… this time…
c'est pour toi

désolé

On him blocking me

2007-05-17T11:26:00.000-07:00

Never was I treated as shit as this
I’m not annoyed as much as shocked
It sounds funny in my head
As there’s nothing that deserves all this
I can neglect, but that’s not me
I serve my mind on a plate
To all of those who don’t deserve

Feelin Wall at 1:04pm on May 8th, 2007

2007-05-17T11:24:00.000-07:00

Feelin Wall at 7:04pm on May 7th, 2007

trying to clear the head of the many things
to focus on that thing I used to be good at
The capabilities are quite there
missing on them, is making them rare
***
I take you for granted at all times
That’s why I seem harsh on you
I allow mistakes…jokes... rants of others
But can’t make yours pass with no bothers
Does it make any sense?
Friendship is of the essence
And Lubna is on rants
Blame the plants Of this killing weather
***
Speaking of the weatherIt’s HOT… burning hot
I’m fading, lost in mind and is blind
I imagine the park a big swimming pool
That I’m not allowed to dip in as a fool
My aim n life is to get back home & shower
Shower… power… sour… Flower
***
When I drink slush, I get the sh and s mixed
So it’s like: ray7en 3l smeshani nshtari,shlus
***
Bye zaiiddd :@
Bye nash =)
Bye zaid :P
Each gets his appropriate emoticon ;)

It's for you

2007-05-17T11:22:00.000-07:00

I think when she sees u she’ll be happy
With a content smile inside her heart
Please smile to her, give her warmth, a hug if she wants
I know you will I saw a heart in your eyes for her

~Lubna

Feelin Wall at 9:00pm on April 30th, 2007

2007-05-17T11:20:00.000-07:00

I think it’s time
Time to stop my rhyme
To figure priorities
Then live the difficulties
I love it here, I love this booth
I wish I can write about bees’ messed up tooth
But no I won’t, I need to g
oI miss my home, miss it a lot
And it doesn’t deserve the neglecting it got
So excuse me everyone
I’ll be less in here
But don’t worry I’m not going
My feet is stuck with you dear

Feelin Wall at 10:16pm on April 29th, 2007

2007-05-17T11:19:00.000-07:00

I don't want any responsibility
I can't take care of my own
I don't want to hear any voices
mine is loud enough
I’m sick of ur constant dependence
Look at u, have u ever really cared
Don’t look at me in admiration
That’s only causing my deterioration

~Lubna

Feelin Wall at 2:47pm on April 27th, 2007

Scenariotic

2007-05-17T11:17:00.000-07:00

I don’t mind wakin in the middle of the night
After my perfect sleep & all the dream sight
To just read your mind, to know that u care
To worry about ur understanding & enjoy that u share
Please help me out, understand my fear
I can’t have my scenario, rolling again that near
It feels so ugly, so unreal
So weird that it’s got the two close to me surreal

~ Lubna

Feelin Wall at 11:07am on April 27th, 2007

2007-05-17T11:15:00.000-07:00

نعسانة وجرفانة والشغلة عبارة عن عذاااب
طارت المحاضرة والشياب أكيد أخدني غياب
هاي صار عندي طحشة غيابات وأنا عاملي حالي الكوول ومن اللي عندهم معنويات
اوكيي الشغلة زنخت وفكرة أروح ع باقي المحاضرات
بنشوفكوا بعدين-انشالله- بس نشطب الغيابات

shocked of my own self (!)

Feelin Wall at 8:50am on April 24th, 2007

2007-05-17T11:12:00.000-07:00

April starts with a fool
A birthday in between, that’s cool

A jumping landmine
That I do seem to mind

It became clear that a wish
Is just what it is
Clinging to the hope which
Died with stepping on that switch

I can put all reasons together
As that can cause pain forever
And that is what I want for the time
Hoping that it’ll pass with that mine
That’s taking my soul for a while

I would've wanted to go, I would've wanted to smile
But I think I should realize, that that will come in a while

For the mean time, let’s say it is what it should
It feels like fasting, & it makes me feel good

~Lubna

Feelin Wall at 10:32am on April 21st, 2007

game fight

2007-05-17T11:10:00.000-07:00

I want to write something, as that's the only thing I can do
I'm here at Ghadeer's, sitting, trying to figure who
I saw you well at the game, loved your moves
I even loved your grooves
But Zaid, I wished to tell u to believe in this game
Apparently you were right; this game had nothing to do with fame
I hated his guts; he was supposed to get his share
No one is to leave a scratch; no one is to leave a mark
I hope he was a man not like dogs that bark
Cool off, no one deserves, if he didn't get his share today
I'm sure he'll get it on the way

Feelin Wall at 3:50pm on April 19th, 2007

2007-05-17T11:07:00.000-07:00

An emoticon followed by the wrong left turn
I ended up laughing and thought I should learn
That it would never be easy and it should burn
The sensation is mine to earn
***
How come I’m not in although she knows I care
I did stuff just for her, and it’s just a dare
I don’t get it, but tomorrow should declare
A new formulated fairA better one I should spare
A burden, I really need no more
Please be nice to me, it’s becoming sore
***
I know I get messed up about it
But believe me, I do like it
You are a great guy, and you know he is MY great guy
For that I should thank you, for sticking around
For the suggested rides and drives about
I think I cleared how I feel
Hope you understood my fear :)
~lubna

Feelin Wall at 8:13pm on April 14th, 2007

Just for Nadine…

2007-05-17T11:04:00.000-07:00

It’s all about the views
He views things in black eyes
You view things in blue
The difference in color causes difference in views
To you it was perfect, like never before
To him, it made him ask for a break, and for nothing more
Chickened out? Found a lame excuse?
However it happened, the pain would never reduce
I think you should’ve opened your eyes well
As to avoid falling in hell
Or maybe you should’ve purchased lenses in black
It’s never late; you’ve got a new next track :)
~Lubna

Feelin Wall at 3:45pm on April 6th, 2007

2007-04-03T14:22:00.000-07:00

Pretty yes you are. All people managed to agree
to me… A rectangular face is what I see
Black and brown are its colors
With eyes that can only see dollars
Your eyebrows are un-plucked and bushy.
Masculine you think, while they’re fussy
Your eyes are two pebbles picked off the streets.
Your mouth is so dirty, with ketchup and flees
You better learn to respect
And I’ll learn to detectA man from a boy ~Lubna

feelin wall at 2:22pm on April 3rd, 2007